The quote from Robert Greene that I posted yesterday has thrown me a little:
[People] are far too present and familiar, their every move displayed on social media. That might make you relatable, but it also makes you seem just like everyone else.
I don't know how I feel about the idea that posting so much about myself makes me seem the same as everyone else. I always figured it showed how I was different. The very last thing I want to do is be just like everyone else.
I started writing daily notes on my wiki as an alternative to spamming social media feeds with my every passing thought. I moved them to a separate blog because I thought that it was easier for normal people to read than the wiki. Then I rolled them into baty.net and here we are.
But I sometimes worry that I share too much. I worry that there's nothing left to the imagination. I honestly don't know if this is a problem or not. I have days I want to burn it all down and pull a _why.
I have a strong feeling that I will die young without artifact. That I will make no lasting impression. This will be my avenue. So hold your horsess I just have a few more things to do in life and I’m sure I’ll be out of your hair.
Why The Lucky Stiff
How could I ever re-invent myself if the self everyone knows is the real one?
The answer is unclear. I share things because it's the best way I know of to be part of society without actually being part of society. Sharing makes me feel known. It makes me feel like I exist. Writing on my blog rather than on social media feels like a different and better way to feel that way while still being different than everyone else.
I have no real intention of disappearing, but I am re-thinking what it means to be here.